In the air

i'm feeling very inadequate these days...in case you couldn't tell from my previous publishing...i feel priorities slipping that shouldn't be, work that should get done being put asie...i don't know what is wrong with me. i don't know where time goes sometimes. sometimes, i wish i could vacuum clean my brain...complete all the mini-tasks that i have sitting up there on post-it notes waiting to be dealt with and removed from my mind. its mom's birthday tomorrow. i hate birthdays. you can never do enough to show a person how much you appreciate them, but you are expected to try, and also schedule it into a specific date...so forced.