Sunday, August 27, 2006

sacrifice

What sacrifices do we make to our God, and what good do we think they do? Some sacrifice our families, or time, our well-being. We do things we don't want to, we compromise, we keep driving when our tank is way past empty, we keep giving when our pockets are dwindling low, and it is because somewhere at the root of our conciousness is the idea that that is what we must do, that God is pleased with burnt offerings. Sometimes, we feel so BURNT. Too many meetings, too many bible studies, too many people, but its doing the right thing, is it not, to continue. Do we slaughter our families on this altar, when we press forward with the altruistic notions of "ministry first". do we offer ourselves up, chunk by bloody chunk, and is that what makes our God happy? it seems grotesque sometimes, but at other times, its beauty. i'm not sure mostly.

9 comments:

Christiane said...

I love the way you express yourself :) Of course, I have no answers or even profound thoughts to counter yours...but I just thought I'd let you know that I think you are great :) Your posts make me smile cause you say things and think about things that most people don't, and the people that do, don't say it out loud! I love reading what you write :) That's all! Bye!:)

farfromhome said...

I agree with Christiane :)

I love you very much Bethany Horne.

Kent said...

Bethany,

Nicely written. Of course I don't have the answers either. I do take it to heart in the old testament when God tells the Israelites he is sick of their sacrifices, doesn't need them, and wants their love and their love for others. (Too lazy to look up references).

Kent

Kent said...

This is where the OCD part of me kicks in, and I can't leave it without references:

Isaiah 1:10-17
Isaiah 66: 2-4
Jeremiah 6: 19 - 21

Kent

heidi said...

i was thinking about something like this in church yesterday. the pastor dude was talking about exploring gods scope, participating, responding, and building our lives around that. and he said something about how we are paying more attention to the retaining wall in the backyard than what's going on in the world. i sort of thought it's a shame that a lot of people are so concerned with the kingdom, as if it's outside of them and spreads far from them, that they forget the concept of eternal life in their life. they don't realize their sex life is dead or that they're kid doesn't know how to make decisions. i feel like what's in your [figuritive] backyard does matter. almost the most. but then again that's just me.

luke said...

despite how rhetorical your questions may or may not have been, you still seem to be getting answers in one form or another so deal with it. but this got me thinking as well, when you mentioned if that's what makes our God happy. ...hey bethany, remember when you gave me that yellow peace badge. i still wear it on my green coleman sweater.

Polythene Pam said...

It's interesting to me how much more you express your deep thoughts in writing than you do in speech. Maybe becuase you're too busy thinking them when others are speaking. Maybe because of a lot of other factors. maybe you're just kind of quiet. However it is, I miss you, I love you, I pray for you just about every day. I hope things are going well with your family and with your parents' decision. I hope you are not feeling very burnt. I hope the Lord refreshes you and that you know his love in a real and tangible way. I hope in a Romans 5:5 style.

shinbone #4 said...

you wanna know something strange. I was thinking on this just a few days ago. But kinda the opposite way around. I think in North America it's hard for us to sacrifice anything. we don't NEED to, and people don't want us to. I can eat what I want for lunch, if I want to buy something it's probably available I just need to save up my pennies and it's mine. In fact often i don't even need to save. i wanna go to a movie, why not. I want to wear jeans and a t-shirt to church no problem. If anyone judges me that's their problem right. In fact people that really do sacrifice are often thought to be a bit over the top, trying to be "super christians". I think though that this part of life is short. we aren't on this earth forever. And if eternity is what the bible says it is, why aren't we preparing ourselves, rather than trying to suck dry all that this very incomplete version of life here on earth has to offer...
phew... anyway. I feel I should sacrifice more. considering all that God has given me He asks very little of me it seems, and even what He asks he provides the means and the energy etc. It's a win win situation. I know the more I hold back and the more I serve myself however, the more I lose out on the blessings God has for me when I live according to His will.

shinbone #4 said...

p.S. His will and desire of course being that we love him with our whole hearts and treat others with the love and respect that He deserves.